When she moved into his tiny house in Stroud, and took charge of his four small children, Mother was thirty and still quite handsome. She had not, I suppose, met anyone like him before. This rather priggish young man, with his devout gentility, his airs and manners, his music and ambitions, his charm, bright talk, and undeniable good looks, overwhelmed her as soon as she saw him. So she fell in love with him immediately, and remained in love for ever. And herself being comely, sensitive, and adoring, she attracted my father also. And so he married her. And so later he left her - with his children and some more of her own.
When he'd gone, she brought us to the village and waited. She waited for thirty years. I don't think she ever knew what had made him desert her, though the reasons seemed clear enough. She was too honest, too natural for this frightened man; too remote from his tidy laws. She was, after all, a country girl; disordered, hysterical, loving. She was muddled and mischievous as a chimney-jackdaw, she made her nest of rags and jewels, was happy in the sunlight, squawked loudly at danger, pried and was insatiably curious, forgot when to eat or ate all day, and sang when sunsets were red. She lived by the easy laws of the hedgerow, loved the world, and made no plans, had a quick holy eye for natural wonders and couldn't have kept a neat house for her life. What my father wished for was something quite different, something she could never give him - the protective order of an unimpeachable suburbia, which was what he got in the end.
The three or four years Mother spent with my father she fed on for the rest of her life. Her happiness at that time was something she guarded as though it must ensure his eventual return. She would talk about it almost in awe, not that it had ceased but that it had happened at all. |
Cuando se mudó a su diminuta casa en Stroud, y se hizo cargo de sus cuatro pequeños hijos, Madre tenía treinta años y era aún muy guapa. Ella no había, supongo, conocido antes a nadie como él. Este joven un tanto puritano, con su devota gentileza, sus aires y maneras, su música y ambiciones, su encanto, conversación brillante, e innegable buena apariencia, la abrumó desde que lo vio. Entonces ella se enamoró de él inmediatamente, y permaneció enamorada para siempre. Siendo a su vez bonita, sensible, querendona, ella también atrajo a mi padre. Así que él se casó con ella. Y así mas tarde él la dejó con sus hijos y unos cuantos más de ella.
Cuando él se fue, ella nos trajo a la aldea y esperó. Espero por treinta años. Yo creo que ella nunca supo que hizo que él la desertara, aunque las razones parecían lo suficientemente claras. Ella era demasiado honesta, demasiado natural para este atemorizado hombre; demasiado alejada de sus meticulosas normas. Ella era, después de todo, una campesina; desordenada, histérica, amorosa. Ella era revoltosa y traviesa como un cuervo de chimenea, hizo su nido de trapos y joyas, era feliz bajo el sol, chillaba ruidosamente ante el peligro, fisgoneaba y era insaciablemente curiosa, se olvidaba de comer o comía todo el día, y cantaba cuando los atardeceres eran rojos. Ella vivía según las fáciles normas de los setos vivos, amaba el mundo, y no hacía planes, tenía un ojo avizor para las maravillas naturales y no hubiera podido mantener una casa nítida ni para salvar su vida. Lo que mi padre deseaba era algo muy diferente, algo que ella no podría darle nunca – el orden protector de una urbanidad inexpugnable, que fue lo que él obtuvo al final.
Los tres o cuatro años que Madre pasó con mi padre la alimentaron por el resto de su vida. Su felicidad de entonces fue algo que ella cuidaba como si esto debiera asegurar su eventual retorno. Ella hablaría de ello como sobrecogida, no porque haya terminado sino por haber sucedido del todo.
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